my life

i buy my kisses

in cigarette packets

with the money mum gives me

to buy the dinner

that would put fat on my bones

and i make out

with fire

in the garden at night

when my house is sleeping

i look at the stars

and wish this kiss would last forever

but too soon it burns my mouth

so i put it out

throw the butt

over the fence

behind my neighbours garage

some day might be found

the ends of my love

when the garage gets pulled down

but i will be far from here then

and i love my dog so much

for holding his bark when i sneak in

and lock the door behind me

i fill a glass with water

and as i drink

smell the smoke in the skin

of my fingers

then i put in my retainer

which keeps my teeth from slipping

back out of perfection

and i climb into bed

and dream of adventures

with girls

the most beautiful of which

i know

already exists